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We went and visited Aunt Kelli and Uncle Harry

We took our first big vacation of 2019 to California to see Kelli and Harry’s New place. Jesse got off work a bit early and drove to Yreka, California the first day. Decided to stayed in a hotel there. Jairon’s First time staying in a hotel. He kept asking where the living room was and if this was Kelli’s . . . . . . .  We thought that was so cute. He is a great little traveler and did finally understand we were halfway there and that we would see Kelli the next day. We went and had the most delish dinner at Black Bear Diner. We all slept so very well and then headed to Sanora, California early. This is where Kelli has decided to retire. It was about 6 hours with stops. Jairon slept for part of it and we stopped in Sacramento so Jairon could go play at a great park I found downtown. There was so many cool feature at the Park. They had a few alien ships and sculptures that the kids could play on and take pictures with. They had swings and a big sand pit we could not keep Jairon out of( he needed to move and get all the wiggles out).Jesse stayed right with Jairon and played with him the whole time. Jesse is such a hands on dad, that truly enjoys spending time with his child. We are so luck to have him.

 

I took lots of pictures and talked to a really nice family with 4 kids. We ended up staying for about 45 mins. Then it was Back on the road we go. We had about 2 hours left and a beautiful drive ahead. As we got closer and closer to Yosemite the natural beauty increased with every mile. Having all that Beauty around to detract us, helped the last 2 hours fly by. We were at Kelli’s in no time. We got a quick tour of the house and then in the pool we went.Ruby Jesse littlest cousin was there staying with Kelli. Jairon loved to have a kid to play with. It was so hot and man did the pool feel heavenly. We enjoyed the pool for the rest of the day. The kids had fun playing with us adults. Then stayed up late to see Jupiter and Saturn with uncle Harry’s telescope. It was super cool to see them and how bright they were. The bugs loved us, well they loved Jesse and I. Jairon never gets bite. Lucky guy. The next morning was a slow one. Everyone stayed up much to late. We had a very crabby Jairon. But we rolled with it. Kelli took u

s to the old town place and we rode on an old covered wagon and we almost got “Robbed”. Jairon was like, what the heck is going on. He got all serious and said” what is going on here guys”. Then right at the end of the hold up he said “its enough” and then when he let us go. Jairon said” that was a close one” to cute. We laughed at how cute Jairon’s reaction was and I even got some of it recorded. Then It was time to go have lunch at the old town pizza place. We got to drink all the Sarsaparilla(rootbeer) we could with pizza and bread sticks. Was the best meal on the whole trip. Best Sarsaparilla I have ever had, well the only Sarsaparilla I have ever had. . . .  Then we headed back to Kelli’s to enjoy the rest of the hot day in Kelli’s and Harry’s pool. We all had a blast. Jairon is really showing more confidence in the water and will for sure be swimming by the end of summer. We all got a bit burnt but not to bad. Kelli offered to keep Jairon the next day while we went to Yosemite, We thought about it and our last years trip to Yellowstone.  Jairon is a bit young to be walking 5 plus miles and Jesse would be carrying him the whole time. Jairon was having a rough time with the trip getting him off of his normal schedule so we decided to take her up on her offer.We decided we would just leave super early and get back in time to spend the last day with everyone. It was an early night for everyone. Jesse and I were excited to have an advernture the next day just us too.

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I turned 35, Beach trip

I decided I wanted to rent a beach house for the first time, to celebrate making it halfway to 70. Pretty big deal, not everyone has made it this far. I invited 2 of my brothers, and their families. My friend Klayton came and My sister Kerry. It was so much fun, We ended up one mile from the beach at devils lake in Lincoln City. The beach house was more beautiful then I could possible imagine. Not to mention we could have not asked for more perfect weather. Perfect not to hot or to cold. We had many water extras that came with the house. Kayaks, paddle boards, and a paddle boat. We all had so much fun enjoying the beach(lake) house, We only ended up at the beach for a few hoursand it was cold. But while at the beach Jairon Flew a kite for the first time and we all built a huge sand castle. Just one mile in and the weather was so much different(warm). Once we got back we stripped down to more summery clothes and got back to enjoying the sun and the Lake. All the kids had such a fun time, We all ended up using everything. Pretty sure most everyone got a sunburn. We could not help it, The weather was too amazing. Later that night we had a campfire and roasted up some marshmallows for smores. The kids ended up heading in, to go watch a movie; while us adults stayed out at the fire talking while Jesse played his guitar. I just sat and watched the stars. We talked about space, and aliens. We talked about old times and childhood memories. I can’t remember any birthday’s that tops this one. I was so happy everyone could make it. I know Jairon made some great memories and I hope the other kids did as well.

In times like these where you realize this is what life is about. Making memories and taking time to spend with family. Every childhood memory has at least one of these people in it. So many adventure and thinking about all the times we almost died(got to love brothers).Looking up at the star thinking about do this same thing 25 years ago with these same people. But instead of talking about what we wanted to do and be when we grew up. We talked about kids/school/health/ and about our kids future. 25 years ago I dreamed to have the life I have now. To be with a nice man, that treats me well and respects me . With a nice house, friendly neighbors, and beautiful sweet children. I wanted to be happy,healthy and really in love. I wanted lots of kids but only have one. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .( I have baby fever) It made me realize I have made my dreams come true from 25 years ago, now I wonder where the next 25 years will take me.  So many things I want to do and so many goals I’m working towards. Feeling so blessed and excited to see where the next 35 years take me.

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While on vacation had an unsettling interaction

While giving my son a break at a park on vacation. I started talking to a very nice family. The mother was a teacher and had 4 kids of her own. We talked bout boys and having a hard time in school. We talked about how sad it is so many kids are being put on drugs so they will stop getting in trouble at school. We talked about school funding and school classes being cut on options in high schools. We agreed on so many things. Then some how mandatory vaccinations came up. California has a very strict rule on vaccinations and school. Parents have gotten there kids taken away due to not vaccinating. This is crazy to me. We have a right to choose what is best for our kids. We have a right to say if we want or don’t want something to be put in our child’s body. We have a right to question if something is safe. I am not an anti-vaccinator, BUT I believe we all should have the right to choose. I believe every single man women and child matters. There has been more deaths from prescription drugs then any illness caused from not being vaccinated. There are immune system deficiency disorders where kids would die if they had even one vaccination, there are family’s that have rare complicated jeans that cause them to get the symptoms of the disease they are getting vaccinated for. Like being paralyzed from the polio vaccine( temporarily) or getting a mild rash from the MMR. This can happen and has. These family’s would be effected by mandatory vaccination laws. Right?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So while we get into this subject I hear her say some very selfish and brainwashed things like. ” Mandatory vaccinations is a good thing” for who?? big Pharma. She said that it keeps the majority of the public “safe” or is it that it takes away a another human right?? and they tell us its a good idea and in-place fear in our minds to make us think its a big risk to not. I asked her does not everyone matter????  . . . . without missing a beat she said “No”. this shocked me coming from a teacher. then she said ” I know that sounds bad, but I care about my 4 kids and there safety” . . . . . . . .My heart sank to my stomach and I felt myself blush. Is this what the world has come too. We only care about our people in our little circle. Then I asked if she agreed with what New York just passed, where every child under the age of 12 has to carry around there proof of vaccination. They will have health officers at every public place checking to see if kids are vaccinated. This is crazy to me. She said ” yes good for them, taking action to protect there states people . . . . I said “What!!!!!! not all the people only the majority that can vaccinate”. I again brought up the other kids in the world that can’t vaccinate/ parents don’t vaccinate them. They can’t go to public places, they can’t even take piano lessons or go to the local park and play. Can’t go to public or privet schools forcing parents to vaccinate or home school. Her response was the deal breaker on continuing any further with my time. She stated” New York has always been the leader on change and I hope soon the whole nation changes to that so we can better protect our childern”. I politely said” Thanks for your dedication as a teacher and good luck with her 4 children.” she was nice as well and said “safe traveling and have fun at Yosemite” I walked away so shocked that this is what our would has came to. I’m glad we could disagree and leave the conversation on a peaceful note but dang did I have a bad taste in my mouth. I care about everyone, I truly do. We all need to start looking at the bigger picture not just at the picture inside our bubble. I hope more people realize no matter the reason it is not ok to take away our human rights. No even ONE.

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Mom’s are always working, we don’t know how to stop . . . .

I became a mother about 5 years ago. I started to feel this living being inside of me. He reacted to noise and his dad playing guitar. That’s when your whole world around you changes. You feel overwhelmed and the amount of happiness you feel is beyond measure but with that love comes stress. At the beginning you have no idea what you are doing and you feel like a zombie 24/7. Then one day you just say being completely exhausted ” I have to do this, I don’t have a choice”. Then A bit more time go’s by and then It’s not forced anymore and you start taking better care of yourself. Then you start enjoying parenting more and soaking in the moments more. This is where I am. I feel like I go go go go go and some how keep going. I was folding clothes at 10:45 at night thinking about how far I have came as a parent. Then again I was up at 6:00 am cleaning and doing dishes thinking about it again so decided I needed to write it down and what better place.

Well first of all, I take much better care of myself and my family. I have done it all good and bad as a parent and have perspective now. I’m so blessed to be home with my own child and get to help guide other children. I love what I do and learn more and more every day. The kids teach me much more then I teach them. I learn how to be a better mother a little more every day. As a mother we can’t stop learning and growing with our child. We have to change along with their changes. As mothers we always have 100 things to do and 100 more we should be doing. If we could some how be 8 people we could get everything accomplished that we thinking about wanting to do/ needing to do. Time go’s by way to fast and we just don’t have enough energy to do all the things we think about doing. Mother’s do their best.

I have a busy life, It’s everything I ever wanted and I’m willing to do the work. I love working for myself and working on myself at the same time. I have been getting my juggle down and feeling so good and so motivated. I look in my “baby” boys eyes and remember why I’m doing ” it all”. For him and the future generations. I want to help as many people in this life as possible. Truly living in life is about giving. What I give the most is my love. It makes me feel so good to help others. It feeds my soul to ease others of issues. I love to be busy and having purpose. Life really is amazing you just have to be willing to do the work. If you want the world to change start with you. Give, Live, Love

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ZOO Trip 2019

    

Rain or shine we planned to go, and we got some of both. The kids never complained once about the rain. It was not a cold day so that helped and it was just exciting for all of them to all be together at the Zoo. The only one we had missing was Draydyn. We missed him and Colby asked a few times “where was Draydyn” But I was so happy 4 of the 5 kids got to come. Jesse and Colby Hung out for most of the day. Juni’s dad Mike and I kept an eye on Jairon, Juni and Paislee. That was a task but do to a bit of rain there where not a lot of people there. We saw so many animals. Shortly after getting there, we saw a snake eating a rat. It was super cool to watch. Then we saw the flamingo and a duck with a bright blue bill. The huge fish in the tank with the alligator was cool. The alligators eyes keeps following the fish as they swam by. We though we might get to see another animal eat. But the alligator did not end up moving. The porcupines on the other hand where moving all over. It was like they where doing a little dance. Their long quills looked like they had suits of long dark grass on or a stiff wig. The kids really liked the Porcupines, they giggled a lot while we watched them walk around. Then came my favorite animal, the giraffes, these majestic, huge but gentle creatures amaze me. Every time I see them I feel like I’m in the presence of greatness. They are like no other animal on earth. Then we saw some funny looking monkeys and went into where the birds are. Then we saw the lions. since it was raining they where close to the glass out of the rain. I had Paislee with me looking at the lion. The lion turned and looked right at us. Made eye contact with both Paislee and me. Paislee backed up and bonged her head and I truly felt the feeling of true power when that Lion looked directly in my eyes. The power they have is so amazing to see in real life. Then came the cheetahs. Due to the rain they as well where very close to the window and napping. But the safari jeep right by the cheetahs was a big hit with all the kids. Then we headed over to the elephants for the info show. The elephant was in such a great mood and did all kinds of things. He was being oh so silly. The kids loved it. We had lunch there as well. Then came the chimpanzees they gave quite the show. There was one right by the glass and it started to make kissy faces at Paislee and she got scared. I said he is just giving her kisses. Then had Jairon go see if the chimp would give him love. It kissed at Jairon and at Juni. They played with it. opened there mouth and then silly faces. Then he seemed to get embarrassed or just was done and he went away. It was a super cool experience and It was so cute to see the animal show love and communication skills. Then came the penguins and then sea otters. Both exhibits where pretty empty of animals. Then we decided to take the train around the Zoo. The kids  loved it and wanted to go again but we once went once. Then it was time to head out. We saw the white mountain goats on the way out and had the 3 oldest kids do the pictures booth. Was a great way to end the day. Got to love field trips and getting away to learn. So thankful for my life and everyone in it.

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Juni our newest Girl

Juni’s brother go’s to the same dojo as my family. Her dad over heard me say I baby sat. I gave him my card and then about a week later he called and then Juni started shortly there after. She has been coming for about 3 weeks and has adjusted very quickly. She is about to celebrate her 4th birthday and has gone to a pre-school before. So this is not her first rodeo. She is very smart and loves to do painting and art. She asked to do art every time she comes. She really likes to play with Paislee when she comes on the same day. They like to play with Jairon and the best part is they both don’t like it when Jairon is rowdy and rude. They tell him if he wants to play with them he has to be nice. I’m excited about that, Jairon needs more then just me telling him to be nice and that people won’t like that behavior. They all got to go to the Zoo together and had a great time. Juni fits like a glove into our dynamic at school. She has already decided her favorite planet is Neptune because it purpley she said. That’s her favorite color. She also loves to talk unless she is tired and then she just wants to complain she is bored lol. She has not napped at my house yet but I have been wearing her out each day. I know she likes it here because she crys every time her dad picks her up and she asks to stay here longer. She is a lovely girl and I’m excited to see how her little brain works.

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Maxx started our 3rd and final 2 year old boy.

Maxx was a preemie and has everything that go’s along with that. He knows how to cry to say he is not happy but we are still working on word comunication. He says some words but no more then 2 together. He is so cute and super happy when he is happy. He is a bit sensitive but you can easily distract him. With motion, or new noises. He loves it when you act silly but not to silly or you could scare him. He has a rough sleeping pattern, that is frustrating but we will work on it. He after only one week is starting to listen, trust and learn that we are good people that truly care about him. He is saying words and crying less. He is just underdeveloped and needs a push to catch up and I’m the girl that can do it.

Any time a kid starts there is an adjustment period, they cry more, they can’t sleep at first, they sometimes won’t eat, they are still learning to trust you. Poor Maxx’s first week was a tough one. He started to break his 2 year old molars and got sick. There was a lot of crying but I showered him with love and patience. He started to feel better by the end of the week and had a great ending to the last day. He played outside well with the other kids and seemed to be more trusting on this day. I’m excited to get to know Maxx better and become one of his people he fully trusts. Adjustment is hard for anyone, I feel good about what the future holds. Love this boy already. The sky is the limit.

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New Contract

We all live and learn our own way at our own time. Everyone just wants and needs love. I have realized from my gramma Coe being walked all over her whole life; I did not want that to be me. . . . . . . . . . . . I became her anyways, its weird how that happens. Being like her for to many years made me learn that tough love is the hardest to give but the most important one.  Tough love was hard to learn but now I sometimes over do the “tough love part”. Someone has to be the bad guy. I am that bad guy often. I call it how it is. It’s hard to make friends but the smart ones know my intentions are good. Kerry and I hit a rough patch, I had to take a step back. I had to think about what was I doing at 25, think about my friend choices(not great), where I spent my money, What was I doing with my time, . . . . . . . Then realization hit me, I was expecting her to do things I was not doing at her age. I had my answer and knew the angle to take from here.

Well My sweet little sister got overwhelmed by the realness I ask from her. I want her to be 100 % her, not a fake version. I was expecting to much of her and I was rushing her to grow up.I ask her to talk with me, she agreed. Her and I have both grown from this and have sat down and talked details out. I have had to take a big step back and let her do her own thing. Taking myself back to when I was 25, Just moved back in with gramma, newly single and ready to mingle. Not home a lot and not communicating well. I had no re-guard for others worrying about me. I know I upset my gramma often living with her. At the time I did not understand why, I cannot just live my life. I have much better perspective now. I felt better after we hashed it out and wrote up a new contract.

I took the time to type up the contract in a very simple way so Kerry could fully understand it. I had her read it out loud and she commented on anything she had questions on. She said she agreed and signed it. I’m going forward stepping back and just being here to help guide her. Here to stay positive and keep her going forward. She has had 10 good days no a row. She has her space but responsibilities also have to be met. Feeling confident going forward, I know what I’m doing from here on out. That’s to let go and just be her safe place. She knows I love her and just want whats best for her. She is going to do what I ask more when She feels like she can choose the right thing. She is so much more like me at that age then I realized.  We have rebonded in more of a sister/best friend/roommate kinda way. She has asked” Sister can we have sister time” melts my heart . I’ll take the time I can get, when she wants to hangout. She is being more open about what she does and sharing more personal details. I’m excited to see where this new begaining takes us.

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Jesse and I got invited to test for our Orange Belt

We have been dedicating so much time and energy to Kempo. We are falling in love with the art.  I honestly never knew I could love something as passionately as I do so quickly. At first I just thought it would be  good to get in shape. I knew It would work me out better then I would work myself out at the gym. I wanted to support Jairon and show him we are all doing it. I thought it would be cool to beable to defend myself and to protect my loved one. But it had became much much more. There is a flow and connection to the moves. Once you start feeling the flow you naturally remember the sequence. The movements feels amazing, like you can almost feel you pushing the energy around. You feel more and more powerful with the moves as it starts to flow out of you. Kempo is incredible in everyway and I would recommend any family to go for life. You learn so much more then self defense.

Some other classes we are taking is a Qi class. John teaches us how to channel Qi in our class. We have steps we say in a way we believe it and visualize the energy in the place you want it in your body. Hands, whole body, arm, John puts us through tests to see if we can hold the feeling of Qi longer then a few seconds. Everyone can do it for a short time. The feeling is unlike anything I have ever felt. Can’t wait to go to my next class.

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Happy Easter

This is the first Easter in our new house.We are excited to have a yard to hid eggs in and a big 4 year old that really gets it this year. We did an Easter party at school this week. We made an Easter project, dyed craft eggs and did two different egg hunts. We had a great time. I had all the kids, a bit crazy but so fun and so worth the time and effort. I gave them each a basket with 2 flower shaped bracelets, 2 eggs filled with candy, and a stuffed animal. Then got more prizes from the second egg hunt. Each egg had a ticket in it, that had a word on it of the prize. They each ended up winning an Easter Book, some more candy, tops, parachute man, Easter coloring sets, and games. It was a great time, I love all these kids and know each one so well. I love being their teacher and love that I learn from them in ways I never knew. I’m truly blessed to have the life I do and can’t wait to see where all these wonderful little people end up.

I have so much to give in this life,and I love the way giving makes me feel. I give pieces of my soul to every child I work with. I hope that each one takes one or 2 things from what I teach and remembers it always. To think about how important so many teachers were in my life. That I still think about and have impact from. I hope to give this same kinda lasting effect on all the children I have worked with and will work with. Our truest gift we have on earth is to learn and to teach. We are always are doing one or the other and if we are not then we are staying stagnant in life. We have to have goals and dreams to be working towards always. If we spend our time just entertaining ourselves, we burn out at some point and then things like depression and anxiety happen because to have lost our drive or passion to life. I have so much passion for children’s early development, It’s the fundamentals of life. I received an amazing coupon from the ” your baby can learn” site, that I could not pass up. I know how very important knowing 2 languages is. Most countries learn 2 languages very early on. I always wanted to know Spanish and have learned some in school but I’m far from fluent. So I ordered The Spanish “Your baby can learn” for my son and the kids. It’s the whole program in Spanish. I am so excited to see how these kids brains soak up the new language.

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Kerry kicked butt for 2 weeks and got invited to the test

Kerry has decided to go back to Kempo and has been showing some true dedication. Even when her mood gets negative and depressed she still go’s. Even If she burns out before its over and is out of it before class ends, she still went and did the whole class. I’m so proud of her and I can’t wait to see how much growth happens. She is learning slowly that life can be beautiful and good. You can choose to have a good day every day and more and more she is pulling herself out and choosing to have a good day. Even if the day starts out rough. She really is showing progress and effort. She wants to have purpose and she wants to have genuine friendships. She wants to know people really care. I tell her every chance I get that I’m here fight with her, for a better future. I know having structure is hard and being rebellious is part of being our mother’s children. She was very very rebellious in her life. Jairon is also very rebellious but he is getting it from both sides. She is starting to believe me when I tell her things and is starting to change her words. She is realizing how truly powerful words are. She does not speak so poorly of herself. I keep on her about the words she uses and she has been even pointing it out to me. So this makes me know she is being more selective of what words she is using. Being positive all the time is hard for anyone. So proud of her.

I have always loved everything about Martial Arts. I was right there with the boys wanting to learn how to become a super hero. David, Ryan and I always played super hero’s and so when our Gramma put us in Martial Arts we were beyond excited and Could not wait to learn. I learned enough to stop getting bullied and so did my brothers. My sister did a very little bit of Martial Arts growing up but was always kicking and punching. She has always been super strong and has hurt me pretty bad a few times with her strength. Her hugs can crack ribs. No a joke. So I really thought she would not only be naturally good but she would enjoy it. I was right. She is getting better and better and starting to really know this is a life time of work and dedication. It’s not something that you quit, there is no season. If you truly do something because you enjoy it, you never stop and you become passionate about it. She is showing both dedication and passion. Now we are on a race to see who will get orange belt first.

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Sickness hit our house, but have new appreciation . . . . . . . .

Well for a family that never gets sick. Sickness found us this year. All am going to say is no one should be sick for that long and feel that bad,  thank goodness my child stayed healthy.  I appreciate every single thing more. I’m glad I can clean for as long as I want, Without taking breaks in between. I’m happily sweeping and wiping every surface, Knowing I have a clear head and able to concentrate. I appreciate the ability to take care of my son, without feeling I should be doing more. I’m stress free because I just think about my over all health and knowing how blessed I am with amazing man by my side. A sister that really does show she cares and is very able when she does not have ability to not help. I also feel like I am no longer so hard on myself. I saw how the family struggled to do the things they always count on me for. I appreciate everything they did, from taking care of me to taking care of Jairon since I could not.  I deep cleaned the house a week ago and saw the amount of dirt I myself did not take the time to truly think about till I saw the deep cleaning that was not done. What I have concluded from all of this is I rock at life, I am pretty amazing and so I decided after that day, Stop being hard on yourself. Only lift yourself up, push your self, motivate yourself. I know I have to be the example for everyone I am around. That’s all we can do live our lives and hope along the way we leave to lasting impression.

I feel a change in me that is going to change my life. A burning fire that is going too fuel my future success. I know I will do all the things I want because I am taking baby steps everyday towards them. Every person that has a dream can only make them come true with hard work and being able to struggle and fail. Picking yourself back up after every fall is how you succeed. Life is not easy in anyway shape of form. Only the strongest will go the furthest. Sickness may have took me out physically for a week, That same sickness is feeding my fire to progress. Everything that is put in your path has a reason to be there, Its up to you to take it as something to grow from or something that happened to you. I wish and hope for everyone to feel like I do. With purpose and progress everyday. I keep fighting and every single minute of every day counts. Every second waste can never be replaced. Its gone for good.  You can always start fresh and new the next day. We all have lazy days and not as productive as we could of days. We are human and consistency is one of the hardest self disciplines to learn. We all thrive in structured environments. Children love structure and with out discipline they are lost and don’t know their boundaries. Once we are adults we have to somehow do all of this for ourselves, it’s not that easy. That being said just be the best you can be and don’t be too hard on yourself. Life is good in sickness and in health.

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Jairon got 2 stripes in the same day, He is kicking but at Karate

Jairon has had a rough start with karate but is starting to come around. This week we saw a big improvement in him and he received 2 stripes on the same day. My child needs this as much as his father and I do. We are all learning self discipline and dedication to the art. We have all gotten bruises but its making us all stronger. Kerry is getting back into it so hope she sticks with it. The test is coming up again. Would be so cool if they both got their yellow belts. We would be a family of yellow belts. Jairon is waking up doing his 8 point blocking system. He taught his girl Paislee and wants to play Karate and be the instructor. He likes to make us do push ups when we mess up. He is so focused and serious when he is the instructor. He is only 4 and is super close to testing for his yellow belt. I will be so proud, I just worry a bit of the length of time of the test. He would have a hard time so I’m ok waiting another few months.

We have found our lost love. We all love everything about Karate. I have befriended a girl named Paige and we will be starting to workout together soon. She works so well with the pee-wee class and is super nice. I also found out a lot of the kids are special needs so I’m hoping to make so more PSW contacts so i can get back wear my heart is kids with special needs. I started reorganizing my book and I’m excited to get some more done. I can’t wait to see what other changes come along with our new found love,Karate.

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My Little Man is getting so Big and has been so sweet lately

Jairon is almost 4 and a half, We have been so busy and adjusting to aunt Kerry living with us. He started Karate a few months ago and is doing amazing. He is halfway to his test for his yellow belt. He is loving the time outside of home and is making friends. This makes us so happy as parents. He is an only child and human connection is super important. This is the first activity outside of home, T-ball is next, we are excited,as it starts in May. He may be home schooled but we will make sure he gets socializing outside of the home always. He is so coordinated when he focuses and can do anything for at least 15 mins, then he may lose interest. He is very, very smart but likes to play the” I don’t know” card. He works it on anyone that will let him. He pushes and likes to break rules. He is impossible to punish, he acts like your punishment is what he wanted. I like the” I take what I get in life and roll with it, and nothing can get me down part” . . . . . . but dang this kid is so hard in so many ways. Remind myself every day he is worth it and he will be my biggest “Change Maker” . The future is so important and I will raise my son to know the difference between what helps the world and what fights the flow of earths harmony.

Jairon is reading words everywhere. Its amazing and it makes my heart happy every time. He is even reading Spanish words. He loves to do any kind of art and loves sticker projects. He is way to good at acting and freaks us out sometimes. We have to watch our reaction to his acting. It a bit much. He always wants to do math food, making math with his food is easy and has helped him start to do basic math very young. He is becoming quite my little teacher. He helps me teach the kids often. He is always asking to help me, clean, cook or even make smoothies. He has grown about a half inch in the last year. He is still so small but starting to get heavy. Its finally getting hard to hold him for long periods of time.

His love for music is growing everyday. He is starting to sing with such passion and emotion. He likes to do everything in the mirror( still, an only child thing).  We play a lot of imagination games, most of the time we have to idea what we are reacting to. we just match his emotion. I love that he loves to play. He is great at playing by himself but also is learning how to play well with others. Some days he does great and then others he has a hard time. He keeps asking for a baby to be in my belly but he has a hard time sharing his parents. I’m glad he is open to the idea of us having another kid but I’m not quite ready. Plus he thinks he can pick a sister and on many days says no brothers. Well buddy we can’t really choose. Only time will tell. He has a bit more growing to do. To be honest I would be happy with just him. Being a mother is enough.

We have decided to take this whole music thing to a new level and bought music equipment. Jairon, Jesse and I have been doing harmonizing at night. Every time we get our sound right, Jairon’s eyes light up. I even got teary eyed and got goose bumps. I gave Jesse the best 37th birthday gift, the gift to learn music. He has taken 2 classes and is loving it. Jairon was so excited to see the sound equipment set up. I love when his eyes get so full of wonder and his smile is so big his eyes shut. This kid is going places and I can’t wait to see where he is in a year.

 

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Karate is going great

  Jairon is doing very good in karate and got his second stripe. Just 2 more to go and he can test for his yellow belt. He had a rough patch where he was not doing it, at all. Personal one on one’s or group. It was frustrating but we stuck with it. The best part we are all doing it as a family. I love it and can’t wait to go each week. I have some more to learn before I can test. Jesse did some over time and worked a lot so missed 2 weeks of classes but just did his 3rd class and wants to get Ghee’s for us all soon. He said I want to do this and yes your right I need this as an outlet. We all do. Jairon will try and play ” Karate”with Paislee. He did his morning class so well, he was proud of himself. He is growing up so fast and has officially made a friend.” Eli” he is a little older then Jairon but he was so encouraging to him during practice. Trying to help him stay focused and then right after he was done, Eli came up and said ” Good job Jairon, Keep it up and you will be a purple belt like me”. It made his dad’s and mine hearts so happy that he has made a friend that truly cares and seems like such a sweet boy. He sure tested us just like he has every step of the way this far and I’m sure he will keep testing. We are going to do this as a family for life. I know its going to help us with structure and help Jairon have better balance in life as a whole. I have always wanted to do it but could not get over paying for it. Now that money is such a small part of why we want to do this its easy to just shift money around and make it work. I’m excited to get a ghee soon so I can feel official. We also just signed up Jairon for T-ball starting in May. Hope being in Karate well help him rock at t-ball. We will see, being a parent is hard.

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The Sweetest Kid with the Biggest Heart

About 6 months ago when Miss Paislee started with me, I knew she was super smart. She knows how to focus and is eager to learn. The very first day a saw a instant connection between her and my little boy. They always play well together for the most part. Even if they get upset at one another they are both quick to forgive each other. They want to do whatever the other is doing. I love to see my son connect so well with another child. Him being an only child, its important for him to have strong connections young.

  Paislee has learned so much even with all the boys distracting her. She is always wanting to share with the others and is always helping Jairon be accountable. In the beginning she had to learn how to express herself and was so shy she would just laugh when you talked to her or answered yes to everything. She has come along way and will now talk my ear off if I let her. She is always helping me or asking to help. She likes to be the good one and likes to be the good example. She is becoming quite the little teacher herself. Telling her little brother ” talk like a big boy, use your words” and ” great job using your words” when he uses them. Positive structure is what seems to work best with Paislee ( great way to teach altogether). She can be a bit sensitive at times and her little heart feels so deeply for others. Her brother was sick and missed one day and she kept saying he was going to get all better soon( so sweet)and even teared up telling me about him getting sick  (throwing up) it was the sweetest thing ever made me tear up.

She learned how to trace her name very quickly. I was trying to help her one day only a few weeks after coming (only part time) and I said show me how well you can and she blew me away. She did it so perfectly and clear. I was beyond shocked. She will have great penmanship when she is older. She is always asking to go outside, even if its raining or wet outside; she has a solution for it. She is a true outdoors girl, wants to go out in any condition. She has learned how to solve her own problems by talking them out and tattles much less.  She plays so well with the boys. She has held worms and dug in the dirt right along side of the boys. She wants to race, hit the ball, ride bikes and likes to play catch with Jairon. Obstacle course are her all time favorite, she wants to just do them over and over.  She has a very smart little brother Colby that is starting to catch up. Paislee is great at encouraging him and helping him too . So much love for her brother.

Every day she can she wants to play with Play-Doh or paint or color( art lover for sure). She has a bit of everything down, some numbers,letters, colors; she knows lots of her animals and almost every planet. She loves the calendar, counting( both English and Spanish), today-tomorrow-yesterday cards, weather and loves to sing the weekday song( both in English and Spanish);She loves to sing and man can her a Jairon belt it out together( music time can get loud with those two). She always randomly sings and wants us all to join in( and we do). There is lots of hand motions and little dancing sometimes. She loves to dance, do yoga, or even the butterfly game( your lags are butterfly wings). She really likes my food and always has been a great eater at my house. She is big for her age and has been about the same size as Jairon steadily. They are both still about the same size.  This girl is so excited about life and I’m so proud of her, she has learned so much in such a short amount of time. I know this girl won’t let anything get in her way( like her mama). She will do something helping people or maybe a teacher some day( she is a natural teacher). Love this girl!

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End of the Year Evaluations

So I have been doing a little preschool for about a year now. Draydyn has been with me the longest a year almost. He started recognizing words just a few months after coming. He was getting help at home, which really helps. He was starting to read more and more and started talking in full sentences very clearly, shortly after that. He learned so much in such a short period of time, I was blown away. The love this kid has for books is immense. If I had time this kid would sit and read with me all day. He knows 4-6 colors depending on the day. He can recognize about 10 different words, he knows where all his body parts are.He is counting to 10 now, and to 3 in Spanish. He likes to paint and color and is hold his pencil correctly and if it falls he asks for help. He has just resonantly become obsessed with Dinosaurs. He is singing so much, with all the songs we sing. His manners are on point and he is so happy all the time. The latest thing is he likes to play all the instruments. He is getting good at the harmonica. Jesse and Draydyn have a great bond, I love it and he always wants to play and sing and do music time with him.This kid is forever moving. He is very big for almost 2 but his intelligence is impeccable.  I know this kid is going places.

So about 6 months ago I started 2 kids a sister and a brother. Paislee was 2 at the time and Colby 1. Colby is very small and under developed do to being a preemie. Paislee is the opposite, she is big for her age and is talking in clear sentences. Paislee showed so much intelligence in the beginning, She learned so much that first month. loves everything and anything about learning and then I went on a vacation for 9 days and I did not see them for over 2 weeks. It was a hard first day back and I saw a change in her for a few weeks tell she got readjusted . When she is here she is happy and having fun and loves it. She is always very involved and learning every time she is here. She knows 2 or 3 colors.  Some planets ( always knows Neptune) And she knows some of her names letters but is not sure of there names . She loves to paint and color and learned to hold her pencil correctly so quickly. She loves to do her name and can trace it almost perfectly. This girl loves projects and asks with in the first 10 mins what project we are doing and if she can color. She knows animals, shapes not all but a lot. She loves puzzles, even tho she gets frustrated when she can’t figure it out (Jairon is getting good at helping her).She always wants to go outside or play with play-dough. She is very active and busy which is great so she can keep up with the boys. She loves to sing and loves to dance. Her and my boy Jairon are very close and they sing and dance and play very well together. She loves books and wants to sometimes do them for an hour straight. She is only coming 6 days a month right now but if she decides to come more she will start to flourish. The more they come the more they learn.  She has a passion for learning and I can’t wait to see what this next year brings for her.

Colby was so little and light when I first got him. He was not walking yet, and He was very very dependent on that binky. Well he comes the most out of all the kids and he has also shown the most development. He was talking when he first came just very little. In the first week he pointed to the a car and said “red” it was a red car. I knew at that point he was very smart and was ready for my teaching. He sleeps a lot here too, 3 hour naps every day. So he really is only getting a few hours a day but consistent, which is the most important part. He walked just a month or so after coming and has been cruzin ever since. He loves red, but knows a few other colors. He knows some animals and circle. He is starting to count in both English and Spanish. He loves music and has been rippin up the harmonica and loves when Jesse plays the guitar. He is singing with all the songs/dancing and he too loves Jesse they have a bond and he often asks Jesse to read him a book.He loves to read but after a few books he is off and running( busy boy). He wants to color with the others and does great holding his pencil correctly for a short time. In the last week he is starting to really get it, but his attention span is very short so is off and running before the others are done. He loves to paint and the last time got mad when we had to stop. He lets me hold his hand the whole time and never grabs at the paint. It amazing that it only took one time of saying ” See that is yucky don’t touch it” and he has never done it again. He laughs when he gets his hand painted for projects. He will ask every time what color or he will just say it if he knows it. His language development is on point right now. He is repeating everything and is asking what everything is and when I tell him he listens and has been saying everything. The newest one is helicopter. He is about the same size but has become a little rock. He weights significantly more then 6 months ago. He is going to grow so much in this next year, can’t wait to see what this kids got to offer the world.

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The last 3 weeks have been a bit Crazy

So we ended up with 16 days off. Over 2 weeks. We got to have a ton of Christmas fun. My brother, my friend Lisa and her daughter came over for new years eve. I made some Yummy food and banana bread. We played apples to apples. My Sister was being sassy and my brother had to put her in her place. She did not like that and shut down before even the muffins were done and went to bed so it was a Kerry free night. That was her choice. But not going to say it did not feel good seeing my brother handle it in a very respectful way with a nice, quiet tone and she still could not handle being told off. She was being very disrespectful and in his face. We all enjoyed our night anyways I have stopped letting her effect our mood,as much . . . .

A few days later we got kids again. Was so good to see them but Paislee was sick so she did not come the first day. I played and cuddled and recorded. Was a great first day back with the kids. BUT . . . . . . . . just 2 days after that a mom let me know they have found head lice in the kids hair that had just came. What a nightmare right. Well the other kids from the other family had a tummy bug the same week. That tummy bug stayed in there family but both Colby and Paislee passed it back and forth for 2 weeks. They both got it twice. Both missed on different days so lots of sanitizing and vacuumed everything. Washed all the bedding and just to be on the safe side treated everyone for lice. We will be keeping our eyes out. Kerry hacked our WiFi account and lied about it, she gave our address and phone number out. So all her freedom and phone has been taken away. This whole thing is crazy, its just like having a teenager.

So on the positive side Kerry did have over 10 days in a row of choosing to have a good day. We are not sure if it was because she was getting away with having the WiFi password or if it was because she was talking to an X we have asked her to not contact and he was talking to her( the person she gave our info to ) we were not happy. I finally put out an add for someone to help with Kerry.  I got some creepy people but one had been a big blessing for the whole family. A lady that has a small farm that needs some help, Offered to help her stay busy by coming to work on the farm. I best part the whole family can come and help to so my son can get the experience also. We have gone once and my sister at first just wanted to sit in the car. After about an hour i told one of the sweet girl helps to go see if she wanted to come see the bunnies with us. She finally got out and helped and rode on the tractor. She had such a great time she wanted to know when she could come back. Well do to the owner getting sick we are skipping this week. But starting back up starting  Thursday. My son loved it so much he asked us the very next morning if we can all go live on the farm. Also the whole family decided to start karate and its super fun but kicking our butts. Jairon did good in his last one on one class and also did amazing at his last group class and did not leave. He has been showing more care and compassion towards others, and has become my big helper. Kerry is so helpful on her good days, she helps with the kids and does cleaning without being asked. I feel like we connect so deeply some days and others, I feel I have lost her. I know I have to be a parent first and a sister second. She is so ready for this but I think she did not realize how hard change really is.  We all are finding our groove and 2019 is going to be our year. I talked to the neighbor and she wants me to have her baby full time starting when the baby is 3 months old. It’s exciting and overwhelming but its an amazing opportunity so I will keep you posted. I also when to linfield collage to scout out someone to help with the video stuff and teach me what I need to learn. Super exciting month with lots of twists and turns but we are starting to feel normal with Kerry here,   So that wraps up the last few weeks.

 

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The good days out way the bad days

Well my parenting is all over the place, I was not prepared for what I’m in the middle of. We talked and talked to Kerry about what we expected when she came to stay with us, well she got caught in a lie and brought something on to our property that was not ok, we decided to take away her freedom of being able to leave through out the day, the first morning she was acting just like this, but both Jesse and I told her she is choosing to act like this, and that day she did correct it, then we had another rough morning where she got left home all day and then yesterday she was great and help so much. Have no idea why she is acting like this today? but the punishment of no freedom is staying tell Friday

My son is 4 and my sister is 25. They act the same sometimes and the better behaved one is my SON!!! My sister has no idea who she is or what she wants from life. She obsess over something and bugs and bugs tell she gets it then has something to complain about. No more!! I want so badly to get something for her for Christmas but with her behavior I really feel like it will send the wrong message, so we decided she is only getting things she needs. nothing else. She has been going on and on for over an hour saying all kinds’a bad things about herself, our grandmother and tons of untrue things. I feel at times she just talks to talk. She woke up in a bad mood and has not chosen to change it. She has yelled at me, spit in my face and told me to shut up. I feel like today is a total lose.

She has drained me and I don’t think I’m going to let that happen again. I’ll stay quite, knowing she is not going to make since and she is not going to calm down no matter what I say or do. It was like fighting with an angry drunk that is crying the whole time and screaming and yelling bad things about themselves. It was crazy that when she did say somethings that really got me upset because my son was right there. She did say sorry, So I know she has control, she just wanted to give me hell today. I know I would not be here at this time with her, if I was not ready for it. I have been putt in her life to not only learn myself but to help her learn. Lets hope she decided to have a better day tomorrow. Meditation and yoga are key

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My Sister had her best day so far

So my sister and me are bonding, She really does want to workout and be involved. She asked for help to make a workout chart. She sat and did the whole thing. No complaining, she helped so much with the kids. I was able to go do an errand and even talked to her about adult stuff. She has total control and she decides when she wants to be happy and not. I was so proud of her, It made my time with her seem worth it and to keep going. As parents we focus to much on what are kids aren’t doing right, that we forget to make sure to tell them when they are doing it right. I told her so many times today that she is doing a great job with the kids and even brought her a surprise when I got back from my errand. She even told me ” look we are bonding, I’m so glad we are becoming friends instead of at each other throats”. I said the only reason we are ever like that, is your actions and behavior. You could chose to have every day be like today but you have to chose it.  She said yeah I know. This is my new life now. Have to focus on the good days and remember how good they are and know some day this will be everyday.