I became a mother about 5 years ago. I started to feel this living being inside of me. He reacted to noise and his dad playing guitar. That’s when your whole world around you changes. You feel overwhelmed and the amount of happiness you feel is beyond measure but with that love comes stress. At the beginning you have no idea what you are doing and you feel like a zombie 24/7. Then one day you just say being completely exhausted ” I have to do this, I don’t have a choice”. Then A bit more time go’s by and then It’s not forced anymore and you start taking better care of yourself. Then you start enjoying parenting more and soaking in the moments more. This is where I am. I feel like I go go go go go and some how keep going. I was folding clothes at 10:45 at night thinking about how far I have came as a parent. Then again I was up at 6:00 am cleaning and doing dishes thinking about it again so decided I needed to write it down and what better place.
Well first of all, I take much better care of myself and my family. I have done it all good and bad as a parent and have perspective now. I’m so blessed to be home with my own child and get to help guide other children. I love what I do and learn more and more every day. The kids teach me much more then I teach them. I learn how to be a better mother a little more every day. As a mother we can’t stop learning and growing with our child. We have to change along with their changes. As mothers we always have 100 things to do and 100 more we should be doing. If we could some how be 8 people we could get everything accomplished that we thinking about wanting to do/ needing to do. Time go’s by way to fast and we just don’t have enough energy to do all the things we think about doing. Mother’s do their best.
I have a busy life, It’s everything I ever wanted and I’m willing to do the work. I love working for myself and working on myself at the same time. I have been getting my juggle down and feeling so good and so motivated. I look in my “baby” boys eyes and remember why I’m doing ” it all”. For him and the future generations. I want to help as many people in this life as possible. Truly living in life is about giving. What I give the most is my love. It makes me feel so good to help others. It feeds my soul to ease others of issues. I love to be busy and having purpose. Life really is amazing you just have to be willing to do the work. If you want the world to change start with you. Give, Live, Love